Ten years ago I felt flat, depressed and frustrated. I knew there was more to life – more I wanted to be doing, more I wanted to be contributing, more I wanted to be feeling. I wanted to live on purpose. I wanted to matter more. I couldn’t figure out what that meant or how to do it.
I was largely unaware of my inner world.
I had no idea that I was waging an incredible battle against myself inside.
Luckily, my frustration pushed me so far that I finally let go and asked life to help me find what I was looking for.
It worked. Life took me inside to see clearly what was happening in my inner world. It led me to the people that could help me understand and approach everything differently. I got what I needed to begin to act as my own best ally instead of my own worst enemy.
In some ways, I have made this extra crazy for myself because I have been a very stubborn case. Letting go and trusting is such a stretch! Which comes first? How can I trust if I don’t let go? How can I let go if I don’t trust?
It has been and continues to be a process and daily practice.
It has been the most rewarding thing I have ever done, for myself and everyone I care about.
Everything has changed.
My relationships are fundamentally different. I used to hide the real me, protect my heart by allowing no one access to it, control my experience and deny true connection. Now I am able to be open and loving, showing up curious, willing and able to trust enough to connect deeply.
There is no real distinction between my work and my life. I am so fully on purpose, doing what I love, that my work infuses my life and it feels wonderful. This does not mean I have become a workaholic. It means that there’s either no such thing as work, or no such thing as life without purpose or meaning. There’s just no distinction. I am fully engaged in my life and my work and they are tied together in joy and meaning.
This was not an immediate magical shift.
It has been the result of deliberate new choices made over several years. It continues to deepen and become richer. And it is the best thing I have ever done for myself and for everyone around me.
This shift has reconnected me to joy.
Now I help other people find their purpose by reconnecting to their joy. And that’s about as good as life can get.
If you feel the shift and want to find YOUR purpose here, send me an email.
One thing I feel quite sure of – if finding your purpose is your next step, your heart is telling you loud and clear. It's time.
I will be delighted to speak with you.